Am I really a clean freak now?!

Pre-baby, I didn't really care if my house was super clean. Tidy mattered but not clean. I had a house cleaner come once a month with my intention being to do "filler" cleaning in between...which other than vacuuming, almost never occurred! 

Fast forward to me today, I can't sit down and do something I want to do, before the house is clean. WHAT?!?!?! It literally just dawned on me yesterday that this change has occurred and as of today, I've started to stage an intervention for myself.

Why am I doing this? 

My myth: Probably because I think there are certain "expectations" of clean house perfection since I am a stay at home mom 

What should be my reality: stay tidy like you used to but for heaven's sake, don't let some dirty dishes bother you! 

I'm declaring to myself that it's not healthy for me, for every bit of my naptime-time to be fully taken over by clean the house activities. Instead, I should work on having my house look presentable but also, allow some free time for myself as well. It sounds silly and simple but that's my new goal!

I do miss my cleaning lady though!!!